This picture is from last Easter when I took my roommate/best friend to Canada with my parents. It was an interesting trip and I learned a lot about what makes people different, but it was still a good time. Now almost a year has gone by and oh so much has changed. Those pink sunglasses have since been broken and so much else has changed. People grow up. In a year from now I don’t know where we will be. For the first time in my life, I feel like I don’t know where I’m going to be in a year from now and that’s terrifying. I can’t even tell you where I’ll be past December and that’s weird for someone that plans out every little thing. I was on Pinterest when I saw this one quote:
"Relax. You will become an adult. You will figure out your career. You will find someone who loves you. You have a whole lifetime; time takes time. The only way to fail at life is to abstain." Then there’s also the one that’s "Think happy. Be happy."
All I have to say to that is I sure hope so. I have been trying so hard to not worry about things, and let me tell you it is CRAZY difficult. I don’t know even know how to. I just need everything to be okay. I worry, I’ll worry my life away. And I can’t stop worrying about that which is beyond ironic. It’s so crazy how just telling yourself to be happy can make you so much happier, just being consciously aware of your mood changes everything so much.
Another quote that has been speaking to me is “The 3 C’s in Life: Choice, Chance, Change. You must make the choice to take the chance if you want anything in your life to change.” Another one that goes with this one is, “Don’t be afraid to fail, be afraid not to try.” I recently took a major chance in my life and am currently waiting to see if it works out and let me tell you waiting is literally THE WORST THING.
The last quotes….”The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving the present.” I think this is so true, for me at least. If I am so obsessed with the pain and agony of the past, I forget to live now. I think we get so wrapped up in the pain that we forget that we should be looking for the love, we should be ready to be happy and be happy instead of dwelling on the unhappiness of before.
Bonus quote: Don’t forget to fall in love with yourself first—Carrie Bradshaw. I feel like I need to work on this and so many other people do too. How can we expect to be loved if we don’t even love ourselves? The question is though how do you learn to love yourself? How does that happen?
I know that my life is more of a mess now than it has really ever been, but I would also say that is kind of exciting. The world is in front of me and I just have to figure out where to go. It’s like taking your roommate to a new place, she gets to experience something so great, and in life God is taking us to new places where we get to experience so many wonderful things. We just need to pause and enjoy the sunshine.
Anyways those are my random thoughts with this picture.